Wednesday, November 23, 2005
i feel reali tird.. n ive given everythin a tot.. i tink i shall onli use all my strength 2 do thins tt r in top priority nw..
dis way.. i hav more thins 2 occupy myself w.. i dun wan 2 regret in e future.. n i hate myself 4 bein lk dis.. ive no confidence animor.. its nt lk i used 2 hav it.. bt at least nt lk wad im nw..
dis sentence "hav more confidence" was repeatd by alot of u.. thnx.. bt i doubt i can find em nw..
i had badminton match aft my sch tdy.. we lost.. bt i enjoyd e game.. smtimes in life u dun nid 2 win 2 enjoy thins.. david's leg is injured n can c hes in pain.. im hapi 2 at least c tt he completd e game.. tts sportsmanship.. n its nt his fault at all tt he cant giv his 100%.. i duno y he feels its his fault.. if i won under great pressure.. i wun enjoy e game.. i wld prefer 2 lose n enjoy e time..
went hm st aft badminton.. tts when i totali cant move le.. im reali very tird n hungry.. when i was eatin my cousin calld.. she was at downtown east w her frns n ey cldnt gain access 2 e chalet cos all of em werent 18 yet..
i was lk.. wah.. den i went 2 mit her der.. 2 help em get e keys.. can c ey very greatful n guilty tt ive 2 com al e way der 2 help em.. bt actuali its ok.. i mean i udnerstand e feelin when u try 2 get help n u cldnt.. n mst importantly im quite close w my cousin so i feel its worth it..
aft tt my cousin sent me hm.. we tok all e way.. n shes e 1 hu reali knock some sense into me.. even though shes younger bt i feel she understands thins alot beta den me.. im glad 2 hav made tt trip.. her words r vassurin.. n i owys feel dam nice when i tok 2 her..
saw my pri sch teacher.. i rem sendin her off when i was in sec 3 i tink.. n nw shes back haha n she cld regconise me when i call out 2 her.. she stl look so young.. bt e feelin when i tok 2 her is totali diff as yrs ago.. when i was 12 e conversation is dose of an adult n a child.. nw it feels lk a fren.. can c shes hapily w her life.. she muz b hapi w her marriage.. i feel hapi 4 her..
i tink in life.. its reali gd 2 learn 2 appreciate thins than 2 grumble.. i hope i wil learn 2 change eventuali..
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